I had given up all hope
but I was at peace
you had found happiness
I dealt with that fact
you were gone
Than the news came
it was all a rumor
none of it was true
it all came rushing back
I was able to smile and hide it
Its been a while since I have seen you happy
The smile is long gone
The giddy up in your step walked away
Very few things make you laugh
It hurts to see you like this
It worries me its been too long
I wish I could make it all disappear
I got this feeling
A knot in my gut
I can't seem to form words
I can't even think straight
When we talk
This knot grows
and i feel so stupid
But when we don't
I feel hurt
Even though there is nothing between us
I feel like i did something wrong
said something wrong
or did not say the right things
You make my heart skip beats
I get so nervous when I see you
All my friends say
I shouldn't feel this way
I shouldn't even consider this
All because of the past
But I can't help it
I realize that things happen
In all honesty
I do not blame you
Although it hurt as all get out
I just wish I could have the chance
The chance to show you
How you should be treated
But I doubt it will happen
I know I shouldn't feel like this
There is no need to worry
But I do
It feels like part of my heart is missing
It feels like I am crashing to pieces
You have no idea
Cause I just smiled and drove away
But that drive
Was the longest drive
Memories came flooding back
Emotions took over
But why do I feel like this?
I shouldn't
Should I?
I had given up all hope
but I was at peace
you had found happiness
I dealt with that fact
you were gone
Than the news came
it was all a rumor
none of it was true
it all came rushing back
I was able to smile and hide it
Its been a while since I have seen you happy
The smile is long gone
The giddy up in your step walked away
Very few things make you laugh
It hurts to see you like this
It worries me its been too long
I wish I could make it all disappear
I got this feeling
A knot in my gut
I can't seem to form words
I can't even think straight
When we talk
This knot grows
and i feel so stupid
But when we don't
I feel hurt
Even though there is nothing between us
I feel like i did something wrong
said something wrong
or did not say the right things
You make my heart skip beats
I get so nervous when I see you
All my friends say
I shouldn't feel this way
I shouldn't even consider this
All because of the past
But I can't help it
I realize that things happen
In all honesty
I do not blame you
Although it hurt as all get out
I just wish I could have the chance
The chance to show you
How you should be treated
But I doubt it will happen
UNTITLED
She crouched in the shadows cast by the streetlamp across the narrow road, her gaze unmoving from apartment 314. Adjusting her night-vision goggles, and flipping them to infrared, she stared through the walls searching for her mark. Sue had been there for days already. Her eyes spotted the moving bright hues of heat pacing in what she perceived the living area.
Feeling the familiar buzz of the phone her pocket, the woman stood and walked down the adjacent alley. Tapping the button on her encrypted bluetooth, she continued her careful watch.
"The package has been obtained," whispered an a
The man can hear the woman calling out in the other room. Her calls carry through the thin, walnut doors, getting louder with every passing minute. Soon he'd have to shut her up before the whole neighborhood was aware of their presence. He grabs the surgical attire hanging on a coat rack against the back wall and quickly ties on the garment and slips on the cap. Positioning a white face mask like a necklace around his neck, he walks over to his desk and plops down in the chair.
Her purse sits there, a large, gold Gucci number, and her wallet is neatly la
January nineteenth, for us, would've marked 4 years
if you had stayed; instead, you left me
drowning in cold, salty tears
dreaming of what we were supposed to be.
Five months have passed since that eventful day.
I'm trying to move on, but I've been
lost without you. So many things I'd like to say
that I doubt you'll ever hear; when
a heart is broken, it's hard to heal.
I'm tired of all the pain
unsure why I must go through this ordeal,
but I have nothing left to gain
from holding on. Time to get over the emotion
and get rid of all these pining love notions.
It has been a while since I have updated DA. I do apologize for this but I have been an still am going through a lot. I will update here and there but it may be a little off.
My mind has been wondering in so many directions lately. It is almost like a child that is just learned how to walk and wants to explore everywhere. I really wish I could get a leash or some rope and keep it contained. Or even better find a way to tie it to a kite to it keeps flying. That would be great except for when the wind stops than the crash would hurt.
Well I am loving this new laptop. I am flying through editing photos in LR. No lag what so ever. I think my old laptop was a little messed up more than just over heating. Anyways this one is so cool, literally. Well photos are still coming.